nicelegs: but sometimes they call me ah fa..

i have lost me in the process of working

have been a long while since i blog.. i think my frens think i don blog anymore.. truth is.. im so bz tat i don have the time and energy to blog..... work is taking over my life.. more like ot is...

well.. ot has began.. to date.. worked 3 days liao.. maybe not too much la.. but its actually like 36 hours ot liao... and the days i went back to ot are not like last time.. not relaz liao.. knn.. cos ganna fuck and fuck til my backside raw liao.. cheebye... damn too lan..

last time at least i got alot of off days.. work 4 days.. rest 4 days.. then work 3 days.. rest 3 days.. so at least ganna fuck liao.. can go off and recover... now.. ganna fuck consecutively for a week isnt fun.. and its more fucking sian.. best part is when your boss doesnt really help you in meetings and stabs you in the back.... saying everything is your fault... when it isnt... taiji at its best... and since its my boss.. i cant taiji back.. cb...

well.. i have been closed to resigning many times this month.. sometimes i just want to throw letter and leave.. but at the moment cannot.. cb.. cos got study loans to pay... and bills to pay....and i still have to enough savings so tat i don stave.... well.. staving might be good for my figure though... but well.. im glad i didnt like go buy a car when i started this job cos i would be pulled down financially.... tat means.. i cannot leave my job when i feel like it... and you and i know that this kind of feeling sucks big time... so at the moment.. im still rather commitment free.. save for the study loan...

AWS is coming... tats in dec.. or jan... its a big motivation for staying til early next year... get the AWS.. at least can tahan for longer time... and i really donno where i spend my money leh... haiz.. pay quite high leh.. savings.. so low.. donno why.. spend too much... on wat i also donno.. maybe my frens can tell me.... haiz.. now im embarking on a savings drive... so don blame me for being too stingy... haven been stingy for a long time liao.. so it might come as a shock for my frens.. oh well.. its a matter of survival leh.....

haiz.. im depressed... i hate to go work.. job satisfaction.. none.. its not like you complete some design or something and you see something materialise in front of you and you feel like you are very clever.... my days are spent dodging bullets and fight fires.... and sometimes when they fire missiles are me... its just isnt anything i can do to dodge it... so crash and burn... seriously injured man... well.. my jedi powers are all gone now..... and going over to the dark side isnt any help also... cos i think my sith powers are eroding cos i send too much dark energy fighting fires and being fucked... haiz..

there is one good thing i realise i have going on my side this few months.. and tats mrs nicelegs.. she told me to quit if im really unhappy.. which i readily admit im... and she isnt a spendthift... i just like paid for a 12 bucks top for her and she is contented liao... ah god.. im blessed wit a good galfren... im don have to vomit money to please though i can.. but it isnt prudent cos im really thinking of walking out of this fucking job... mrs nicelegs offered to support me for a few months if im really quiting... well.. i think im not so poor til tat extend la.. just tat i don like the feeling tat i have no money to spend... and everyone knows nicelegs is a money spending machine.. haiz..

ok so.... oh top of everything at work tat sucks.. mind you.. its not just me tat gets it.... i still have mrs nicelegs... and im glad..

posted by nicelegs @ 5:11 PM